A Dream Deferred
by Langston Hughes
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? Or fester like a sore– And then run? Does it stink like rotten meat? Or crust and sugar over– like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
I have had writer’s block and editor’s block. I heard songs and was inspired to write. Then I sat in front of my MacBook but I couldn’t write what I felt because the words just wouldn’t come out. Not to mention editing previously written columns. I read the columns and got ideas of how to make it better but…you guessed it! Nothing came out that was worth writing. **Sigh** So after numerous attempts I thought I would just get my mind off writing in hopes that I would get back to writing. Go figure. So I organized my music list and bought songs. Still nothing…I had no inspiration to write. Then I heard Ruben’s “Flying Without Wings” and I came to terms with my issue before he completed the first verse. “Everybody’s looking for that something, one thing that makes it all complete.” That’s me and that’s my issue!!! I am missing my wings.
Lately, I have been thinking about my life. Specifically, I think about my achievements. I also think of all the dreams I either deferred or abandoned out of fear and laziness. These are the thoughts that were floating through my head as I listened to Ruben sing. But then I thought of the simple fact that I was alive, blessed to see another day and fortunate to have job. However, my blessings were no match for the streaming thoughts about my unmet goals and deferred dreams. As hard as I tried, I couldn’t let go of those thoughts. I just couldn’t focus on the positives and blessings in my life as my mind kept returning to the negatives.
“So, impossible as they may seem, you’ve got to fight for every dream cuz who’s to know which one you let go would have made you complete.” Why should I dwell on dreams deferred when I have a new day and a new year to make changes? A new year (even a new month) brings different possibilities, a new start, a clean slate. Forget about the naysayers, learn from past stumbles and push on. Do not give up on any dream, even if one comes true. Make an effort, regardless of how modest, as it will help you get one step closer to your dreams. I am aware it’s easier said than done. But I have to try and so do you as a gift to ourselves.
I will try to remember Ruben’s message as I make an effort to make my dreams come true. I will also remember the message as I listen to my brother who also continues to fight for his dreams. You know I may even learn a lesson or two from him. Neither one of us has reached the point where we are flying without wings. However, he keeps pushing on with a better attitude. Not I! When things get too overwhelming, I start pouting like a child. So as a dedication to all the people who are still fighting for their dreams, remember to keep trying and keep the faith in 2011. Together, we can all fly without wings! Now that I have said it typed that, I will say a prayer and keep writing and trying. I will keep making modest efforts on all my dreams. Wish me luck! Good luck to you! 😉