Don’t you hate those moments of clarity? You know…those moments when you realize that you are not the perfect mate. When you realize that despite your great qualities, you can be nagging, rude, just darn difficult. But despite it all, HE loves you. I am not talking about God, although this post is applicable to him as well. I am talking about the special man in your life, your boo. The one who makes you feel special inside, the one who makes you laugh when you feel like crying. That special guy that gives you a kiss goodnight and says he loves you despite the unlovable things you may have said and did.
Well, I recently had that moment of clarity. Yes, I must admit it because I cannot type a lie! One particular Sunday, while babysitting our godchildren, I was particularly difficult with HIM. My mood was funky because I allowed little things, things that didn’t matter, to annoy me. Instead of sharing my feelings, I pouted like a two-year old. Sad, huh? Anyway, when the kids went to bed, I did everything I could to avoid evaluating my behavior. But it didn’t work. So I decided to distract myself by listening to music and Kelly Price’s song came on.
“You should’ve told me I wasn’t wild enough, you should’ve told me I didn’t smile enough.” In the song, “You Should’ve Told Me”, Ms. Kelly P. sings about all the things her guy should have told her and even accuses him of leading her on. Every time I hear the song, I think “Huh?!?” Why should he have told her the things she already knew or should have known? Okay…so what does this song have to do with my moment of clarity. Well….a lot. Should I wait for him to bring up my bad attitude / funky mood or use my moment of clarity as a tool for evaluation and self-improvement? Hmmmm…. (more…)